Why Isn't She Writing More?

I began this blog as a place just for me, to give myself direction in my writing and a place to explore my thoughts out of my head and into some sort of forum. I never worried about trying to attract an audience and I never put that much of my own information up here to help people find me.

As I wrote more about my sense of direction, both in the very tangible "I get lost a lot" sense and in the "where am I going in life?" sense, and began to add in more of my thinking about yoga, the poses and the philosophy, I found myself feeling too constrained by my own self-imposed limitations here. A big part of my life is wrapped up in love and relationships and sex, and a lot of how I do that part of my life doesn't look very mainstream. I wrote this entry about my quandary.

That entry in turn sparked a book, Yogic Bliss and Sexual Healing.

The book brought together all the pieces of me in a way that was very satisfying, and once I had accomplished that, I felt unsatisfied with the idea of leaving out whole pieces of my life in my writing. However, I still had strong feelings that people should be allowed to access my thinking about yoga without having to get all sexy with me. And not just allowed, but encouraged if that's a particular boundary for you.

What to do, what to do? I wrung my hands. I wrote an occasional post. I wrote other, sexier posts for another private forum. But I still felt limited, and disturbed by the fact that there's so much I still want to talk about that I'm holding in reserve--about body image, about health, about fitness, about teaching, about group dynamics, about...well, all kinds of things.

So, here's what's going to happen: I have at least one more post for this blog that will show up shortly. I'm going to go back and reorganize the writing here to make it more user-friendly, so that it's not just for me. But I'm also going to be cannibalizing it over time as I create two new sites--one just for information about yoga, both the poses and the philosophy, upcoming classes and workshops, thoughts and ideas about fitness and general health, resources for both students and teachers, eventually (I hope!) video and links to helpful information, and one with all of that plus the sexy stuff and information about upcoming book readings and signings, as well as future writing projects. That way, you, the reader, can make an informed choice about how much is too much, and what is helpful and useful to you in your life, and I can stop worrying about it!

I will keep this site posted with information as I have it. Meanwhile, one more regular entry coming right up!